I found the person, who shall remain unnamed. I cannot help but feel bad, one person knows why, and no one else shall ever know. No one will ever read this, no idea what the point of me even writing this is. I really feel worse then ever before, even worse then I did on the 31st when a dear friend helped me in my weakness, and yet I feel as though by using them for help I may have bastardized our friendship because of their involvement with another factor. I am really not sure what to think. On top of all this, we are moving and I have no time to do anything fun durring the day so I stay up at night, which leads to a lack of sleep, which in turn leads to me feeling worse, its a fricken vicious circle.